To Infinity and Beyond!
I believe in loving you to INFINITY AND BEYOND!
i hope you know me because this is the only word that can describe me, Friendly.. =)
well, i'm Jonathan and i sing, i dance too, and i love dogs, volleyball and football!
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Love someone who is worth loving…
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Mistakes..
24th of the month of April
It’s not easy to accept your mistakes… Maybe because we know that if we accept it we might crash into depression in the end… Nobody really accepted their mistakes, why? First of all, who wants to accept that they’re the ones who are responsible for someones cause of sadness..
Wow, she asked me this question and I really broke into pieces ”naalala mo to, to infinity and beyond, yung promise mo?” It really makes me think back and realize that I made that promise and broke it.. Maybe I wasn’t ready to let that go… Every time I get flashbacks about the past it keeps me so quiet and it really makes me sad and it really ruins my day… I don’t know why but I look at someone else to be the one to be the source of my happiness but why does she keep on coming back? is it because it wasn’t really over or just I can’t forget about what we had… UUGGGGHHH!! This isn’t easy!!! :|Why can’t you just leave my mind? Why do I care for you too much?!
Is this a sign that is trying to make me fall on my face and let me feel the pain that she felt before? Maybe it’s not easy being the old self I am after that.. I really had myself full of her thoughts and I guess she just can’t be forgotten…
“You’re my favorite mistake..”
-To Infinity and Beyond!-
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It’s Not Easy Being Me..
24th of the month of April
“The feeling of depression is the cause of everyone’s sadness”
This is maybe the first time I felt this awkward feeling of depression.. I may think about the littlest things that may happen but I guess this time, it’s the biggest.. It’s not easy being the one that really experiences problems head on and knowing that the cause of everything is just that one little mistake… Maybe committing mistakes is normal to humans but I think committing the mistakes that make you down, really sucks so much that every time you think that everything will be fine, it goes super wrong and you see yourself swimming in shallow waters with the problems surrounding you.. I’m really blessed to have friends that really help me when i’m really sad but sometimes I just don’t want them to worry so much about me and all I can tell them is my favorite tag-line “nothing, i’m okay.. don’t worry” UGGGGHHHH!! I HATE IT!! =(
Maybe worrying too much will cause a big case of depression, but being this sad makes me want to just lay in bed, listen to music and just leave everything behind… One thing, IT’S HARD BEING ME!
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Laughter is Timeless.☺: Weird sayings by ME
Yes, I miss falling in love :( I really do. But you know love will come just not today. Ay f drama. HAHAHA but seriously, I miss texting someone “Good Morning”, “Good Night, I love you” and I miss recieving texts that says “I love you too”, “Take Care”. Loving is a big thing, but getting hurt is…
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Sick and Tired…
17th of the month of April
It isn’t really that easy to be happy in this time… I guess it’s really because I’m really scared to be the person who you want to be.. I can’t be the person who really makes an effort for something that I can’t really be comfortable with… Maybe I’m really scared of what others might think.. I guess my friend was right when she said that I shouldn’t give my everything, cause giving everything to her will just make you feel so sad when you don’t get the positive thing towards you..
Have you ever felt the feeling of rejection? If not, I guess it’s safe to say that it’s gonna be the worst feeling you’ll ever feel… It might be the cause of you’re depression… It’s so sad how I just ruin my day thinking of it.. I guess I can’t really be happy first cause I know that I’ll be ruining it again.. HATE IT! Sick and Tired of it!
-To Infinity and Beyond!-
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